I’m a control freak. I’m not super organized, but I know what I have to get done in each of the spheres of my world (work, married life, and GA). Lately almost all my worlds have been completely frustrating. Personally frustrating. I want more. I want more out of myself in all those areas and I’m not sure how to deal with feeling frustrated that I’m coming short.
I’m trying so hard at work. I want to add not just value, but super levels of value. I want to help create and make things that help my co-workers able to do an awesome job too. Because my company deserves the best out of me. But I’ve had to realize small victories because I’m unable to deliver on the big ones.
On GamingAngels, I want to make this network. We have potentially great writers for our Pulp Angels section. We may have an exciting edition to our casual games group. I’m working on the corporate site. But then there are the frustrations. We’re still fighting to get invited to things. After six years of climbing and getting better, and we’re still fighting. It makes me wrack my brain to find out what I can do to make them come to us. I have to think outside the box. GamingAngels has to be more than just known in the gaming industry. We have to work, brand, focus, and attack.
The house is great. It’s getting better every week as it’s feeling more like home. I even baked last week and plan to make UFC cupcakes for the UFC event this weekend. It will be great to have some friends over. But I want to do more. I want to start working on the Garden, but have no time to start. I also have had a hard time finding time to work out (yay I did today!). Getting used to taking out the trash every week. lol That is a huge deal coming from an apartment complex where you throw your trash down the ramp.
It’s hard fighting frustration on three levels. But I’ll just keep looking at smaller deliverables, and making small wins. Just have to remember to pause to see what I have done.