I’m at five weeks post-partum and I wish I could say I have this breastfeeding thing down, but we don’t. Truthfully, I can’t even say that I’ve given it a ton of effort. Why? Didn’t I want to breastfeed? Yes. But I’m too tired to even care.
I said it. I’m so tired. We’re so tired. Patch grunts through the night which is triggering my mommy alert complex so I’m up all the time making sure he’s okay. Then we are up for a diaper change, feed, diaper change, maybe feed again because diaper change wakes him up, then I go pump, wash the accessories, and back to bed. The whole process can take long enough that he may be up again when I finally get back to bed after washing pump parts. It’s just exhausting.
I’m still trying with the Breastfeeding effort and Breastfeeding Support groups definitely help. I’ve been able to get one on one assistance, weigh Patch to see if he gained weight at the feeding, and the most important thing….hear from other mom’s going through the same exact thing right now.
Guess what? We’re all tired and it’s highly probable (like in my BF support group) everyone looks like hell. No one has time for being fancy when they slept for like two hours and have their boobs out every few minutes. And that is comforting. The comfort allows me to relax and stop being so hard on myself. Breastfeeding is a process and I’m now just going with the flow and seeing where we end up.
There are a couple of pointers I’ve already learned from Breastfeeding support group that I want to share (yes you still have much to learn even after having one baby!):
- Gliders are horrible for breastfeeding.
- You are going to have to feed all the time.
With Pumpkin, I had to have a glider. It was a staple to have in the nursery. But guess what? Trying to breastfeed on that thing is ridiculous. First, it’s not wide enough to fit a breastfeeding pillow (I’m using the Luna Lullabye). Maybe many moms don’t need the pillow, but I’m so awkward in my attempts that the pillow is a safe space I can rest him. The Glider also does not go back deep enough for football hold. So I have to sit toward the edge of the glider to have space for him. Enjoy the glider/rocker, but breastfeed on the couch.
Babies are constantly growing. We use the term growth spurt, but really since Patch was born preemie, he’s been growing ever since I met him. His eating (which I can measure in bottle feeds) is also continuing to grow. Some of that is because a bottle is easier, but Patch was able to gain back his birth weight and is now the weight of a normal newborn. Having to feed all the time does not mean you aren’t producing enough milk. It might, but it may also just be that the baby needs more or as in my case, Patch does not suck well enough so we end up in small bites.
We’re still trying and Patch is starting to latch more. But I’m not doing every feeding at breast yet just because I need someone to give a bottle so I can rest(sleep). I’m hoping when I find peace or balance, it won’t be too late to get him on. I’ll continue to update here with my progress. ^_^
How did your breastfeeding journey go? Did you attend support groups? What is your best piece of advice?