Well this is it. The countdown has started. I have two weeks left of breastfeeding and unfortunately, it’s out of my control.
In two weeks I’ll be starting Humira, a drug to treat Rheumatoid Arthritis. I put off any drugs for years because we knew we wanted two kids. Or at least to try for two. Unfortunately with a miscarriage and an ectopic, that path took us longer than expected.
2 weeks left. To pump as much milk as I can and store it. Patch will be 10 months when I stop, and that means I need about 1400 oz to get him to one year. I have about 400 stored already so we’ll see how close I get. I’m not sure I can technically do it but I’m determined to get close.
My RA doctor and Patch’s Doctor recommend against breastfeeding on Humira. Which is why we are making the decision to stop. Unfortunately the weaning process will take much longer for me. I plan on pumping and dumping while extending time between pumps until the pumps have dropped off. I need to do this to prevent clogs or mastitis cause I’ll be damned if I get that on the way out.
A huge part of me is mourning this change. I’ve spent so much mentally and physically in being dedicated to breastfeeding. 19 months with Pumpkin and now 10 months with Patch. Since Patch is our last baby, this is our last breastfeeding journey. The pumps will be packed away, no more purchasing of storage bags and no need for nursing bras. I’ll never wake up with my bra soaked through, or have to stop and pump at an amusement park again. A certain freedom comes from this end but it’s bittersweet because it’s not on my terms.
Even though my experience has been cut short. I will always be a supporter of breastfeeding and available to help anyone with questions about pumping. My daughter pretends to pump with me and hopefully that has made enough of an impact that she’ll be determined to try and breastfeed/pump when she has babies.
2 weeks. That’s all that’s left.